I need to believe...

Something has been gnawing at my soul the last couple months, and I haven't been able to pinpoint it until this weekend. Our organization has been making changes, which definitely causes instability within the ranks.

This instability finally drew my attention to something--belief. I've noticed that the things I give my life to, or spend the most time doing, are interconnected with what I believe in most. When I doubt something's effectiveness, value, or whatever, the amount of time and energy spent on that thing instantly plummet.

I went to Mosaic when I was a student at UCLA. Erwin McManus is gifted at many things, but his belief and hope impacted me most. His belief in Jesus was contagious; people lived MORE and risked MORE after interacting with Erwin.

I sense that our culture is in transition, much like our organization. In times like these, it's easy to get lost amongst all the change. I'm learning how important it is to discern where God is at work, and be able to live and communicate in ways that reflect my belief in him. I cannot control who follows me, but I can control where I'm going, and what I'm all about. The more clearly people understand where I'm going and why, the more they can either get behind it or decide to follow someone else.